Fix it Before it gets Worse

Back in November, having seen too many social media posts of the very fun and tedious temperature blankets that people were knittings, or crocheting (yes there’s a difference, no I will not remember what it is), I got it in my head to make a temperature quilt - because I can’t knit (or crochet or whatever) but I can sew. And I have a mother who quilts to give me advice (who tried to teach me to knit but we both agreed that was a horrible experience). I finally started the monstrosity in December after wreaking havoc on my brain trying to nail down a color scheme and design, and all was going well if slowly until two weeks ago when i decided that the green were flip flopped and needed to be switched.

Which would mean deconstructing everything I’d done, including most of the embroidery I’d finished the previous evening, and piece-mealing the entire thing back together. Or the other option, do nothing, continue one, and let it make my brian itch for the rest of my life.

And so I spent four hours with a seam ripper, and another 12 hours putting all of the pieces back together…. and then the last 2 weeks fixing the embroidery.

Was it tedious and irritating to rework something I’d done once already - something noone but me would know was wrong (wrong in the most subjective of terms) - and yet, it looks better, and having done it I’m so glad I did it. You can still see the leftover lime green surrounding the center hearts where I simply cut them out of the old center square and plpped them onto the new one, and adding more vines and leave around them should help that blend in a bit once my fingertips have stopped hurting from the previous round of embroidery. Or a thimble, I could learn to use a thimble.

The other tiny overdue monstrosity I’ve been working on, and fixing, is a small painting of a beetle I probably started during covid and left off of because it was off center and bothering me. Similarly two weeks ago I relaized I could pull the canvas off the tiny stretchers, reposition it, and then finally finish it in my long term goal of maximalism art in my hall and living room. Coincidentally, the back of the canvas is so much less bulky that I’m a little irritated i didn’t do that ages ago. Unfortunately I don’t have before pictures, but also that’s fine because it was awful and maybe we don’t always need to document awfulness.

This little piece also won’t be done for ages because the whole idea of it is to create a 3-D painting that will hopefully look more like a mounted insect than art, and I’m using the Stuart Semple Lovetone paint which is beautifully and horribly transparent which may, if I’m lucky, lend itself to fun trapped light qualities as I slowly layer it up with heavy gel medium.

And that’s it, that’s the lesson - fix it when you notice it because it will only get worse, and building on a shoddy foundation causes building collapse and brain itchyness.

Also, save your drafts because your computer may be connected to a wireless keyboard in the next room that may get turned on by a cat causing your space bar to freak out - causing you to restart your computer hoping to fix whatever has gone horribly wrong before you remember there’s a keyboard int he next room you probably forgot to turn off the other day… and then you get to rewrite everything you wrote once already.

But it’s fine. Everything is fine.

August

It’s August, and the summer has been so unseasonably cool that in a way it feels as if summer never really started - and here we are tumbling in Autumn. The Fall Semester of JCCC is starting soon and I’m not enrolled in any classes due to a Winter trip to Canada which takes place right in the middle of finals - and truthfully I could use some more time off, as much as I’ll have any time off while working a full time job that has overtime and a busy season from October through November.

I’ve made less art than I would have liked over the last month, but very industrious when it comes to embroidery, my dollhouse and research for a writing project that’s been percolating in my brain for well over two years. There was a visit to the new aquarium in KC (good, but not as good as Baltimore, except for the otters), and a trip to the Kitsap peninsula to scout areas to live when we move in a year or so.

With that planned move there is a list of a hundred things I need to do to make a house ready to sell, assuming the housing market hasn’t completely crashed by the time we’re ready - which is another great reason to not be enrolled in classes this fall: clean the house, empty the house, fix the house. I did just have the back deck rebuilt, and the front porch screened it which mostly helps with the rampant mosquitos… mostly.

I used to be better at conclusions, but the air is trying to kill me and my head hurts too much to care too much.

this is not about the Roman Empire - March 20, 2024

Driving to work this morning, Michael Smerconish was taking calls from listeners about immigration and the border crisis. I was half listening - I stayed up until midnight last night catching up on homework I didn't realize was due (because who assigns homework over Spring Break?) - and a woman called in and started talking about some list Smerconish had of problems in the U.S. (maybe that was it, I can't be arsed to find it on his website), and all of them coming down to critical thinking skills.

And, yeah? A lot of problems probably are the result of critical thinking skills. Go on....

But then.... THEN she started going on about how Tucker Carlson said that the Roman Empire fell because there were too many immigrants and they all joined the army and then mutinied from within and that was why the Roman Empire fell.

Immigrants were not the cause of the fall of the Roman Empire.

Actual Causes:

• Corrupt politicians(emperors) more interested in power than actual governance

• A whole host of economic issues including a slow down of expansion (Rome relied heavily on taxation from all of it's conquered territories), inflation and the debasement of currency, agricultural decline, trade decline, increased taxation, and increased government spending on military campaigns, public works and a lot on nonsense.

• The size of the Empire - it was just too big and too hard to defend.

• Germanic invasions - which is where the "Immigrants" come in. Germanic tribes entered the empire looking for land and resources and were rejected - so they attacked towns and took what they needed to survive.

The sound byte of "immigrants caused the fall of the Roman Empire" sounds sensational - and any sensational sounds byte really needs to be followed up with research because it's entirely too easy to boil down a complex topic to an entirely oversimplified and inaccurate tidbit. Tucker Carlson in particular is notorious for this - and that garbage being repeated by someone lauding the importance of critical thinking skills is especially enraging for me.

Also, please don't come at me for also boiling down causes to a few sentences - I'm not a historian and I'm very tired.

National Something Day

comic showing a person telling the author that it's National "Draw a Crappy Comic" Day, and the author declining to draw anything until the next day while they hunch over a computer

In other news, there’s not really any news.

I’m organizing thoughts in a constructive way around the importance of choice when hiring for specific jobs, all inspired by the plethora of True Crime content I consume entirely too much of.

I’ve decided I’m not really a big fan of my own art style - and to remedy this I’m doing daily studies of art I do like (the Pre-Raphealites, Arthur Rackham and Harry Clarke), as well as practicing drawing men’s faces (currently Donald Sutherland) until I’m happier with it.

And I just celebrated my birthday, quietly with my husband.

Intentionality

I’m old enough to remember the infancy of social media, when it was all supplemental to everyone having their own websites - myspace and opendiary were supplemental to your geocities or blogspot or custom domain. You’d spend time. week to week checking in various sites to see if that lady who bought the 6ft tall metal rooster had written a new post, or if the geeky lady had a new review of some etsy shop. It was all a little more time intensive, but also very intentional. And it feels like the internet may soon be making an about face back in that direction.

Meta and IG are scraping all of your images for their datasets - apparently in using the platform you’ve given permission for them to do whatever they want with your images unless you can prove it’s directly harming you. I remember seeing this in the IG terms of use back when I first created an account, but it also seemed very choiceless at the time. Scrolling through a feed is so much easier for an audience than going through your list of links to see who is going to entertain you for 5 seconds - and at the time I was a lot more concerned with being seen than I am now a decade+ later. I’m curious to see if we all go back to individual web preseences, or if artists will attempt to use tech like Nightshade to protect themselves from what is essentially theft. I’m not 100% sure it matters - I don’t know if Meta is able to remove the millions of ai images from the dataset effectively and I have been watching for that moment when that snake starts eating it own tail.

I remember my moment last year(or was it two years ago?) when I had a glint of optimism about what ai was going to do and what people were going to do with it. I’d forgotten that people are human and humans do what humans do - and it’s frequently the least amount of work for the most amount of gain regardless of who it hurts in the process.

In short, I’m going to be purging and deleting my IGs, which is going to take forever to delete each individual image - not that it matters for past content, what’s been scraped had been scraped already. But this venue give me infinitely more control of what is mine, and more reason to use a blog space.

I’d like more intentionality in my life - which includes who views what I make. I’d rather you were here on purpose than a glance in a sea of content.